I had this smile on my face...
January 3, 2017 (2/2)
I had this smile on my face, that I've become quite familiar with. It's that unconscious reaction at achieving something that I've desired. It's pride at myself, for achieving a certain aspect of a life I've always wanted, for paying heed to and feeding that fire in my belly. It is awe that I feel when witnessing something incredible. It is an acknowledgement of the luck I might have (or good Karma I might have earned) . But more than anything, it is the simple pleasure with myself and these places I put myself into. It's a post for another day, but doing these things, being in these places, is always a choice we make. It isn't always luck, it's deliberate.
The radio too was in sync, and not without purpose. From 'All along the Watchtower' (Hendrix) to 'House of Rising Sun' (The Doors) to 'Like a Rolling Stone' (Dylan). “How does it feel, how does it feel?
To be without a home
Like a complete unknown, like a rolling stone”
I asked myself the same question. I've known that feeling of free fall. I've been there, I've loved it. This moment was reminiscent of it.
I thought about how 2016, while crappy enough to be the year of Cohen and Bowie's deaths, was also the year when Bob Dylan won a Nobel Prize for his words.
Their music and words, that of Bob Dylan, Leonard Cohen, David Bowie, Jim Morrison always transport me to a time when my life's dreams were taking shape. Dreams of being free to travel the world, of happiness that comes out of exploring it, of tasting new flavours, smelling new smells, hearing new tongues and seeing sights different from what I'm used to. Dreams that determined most decisions I've taken since, of the things and people that joined my life, and those that got left behind. It all came back in this moment. No regrets, not for this pay-off.
Here I was, in the most surreal setting, about to experience something that to most of us looks out of this world, yet is solely from this world. Here I was, achieving exactly what I had unknowingly set out for when I didn't even know myself.